Such as Me in Undecided Position

See through the title, we would know that is complicated, unimagined, confusing situation . That's what I've been through this line . At first, I don't know what to do, with no experience, newbie guy through this out of range of my horizon in KL . Back in time, I'm just a boy with no attractions at all, simply known as nerd boy - shit ! I hate that quote . They just thought I'm no wanna be, full of distractions, and bad things in and out of my life - just like input through the process become the output - that's what I learn in Business course . I'm just explore this hole with no feelings, and be with my friends like other acquaintances . It's not okay for me at first place, but when I realised it in no time, I know they just ordinary creatures with their mind-thoughts - no productive . Now, I Am Thinking Over The Productive One While Doing What I Want To Do In My Life .

With inspired of that phrase, the situation comes to me . Suit to this title, it's about my position as a leader - not a good one, I realised that - TQ . Leader position that I've said is in PMC, A1P7 class representative ( best known as a leader ) . I'm just nothing compared to CEO in biggest companies, firms, clubs and anything else . But I just loved to mimic themselves through myself . For one strongest reason, I want to hold my position is through this medium I can chat with other people, know them, getting know and know, and try to make them my partners . Bad or Good is side dishes, one of my thoughts is They Are Human, Not Alien . Remarked . The half of my clearly observations, I obtained variety of experience, skills, and though performances in my records . There's more and more will come to me in no time, yet to be .

Continue to this topic, this position has been handed over to me because I was his best friend, - no name - . He just got offer letter to be a teacher . And he decided he want to leave us, 3 stand-stood guys to 23 girls . Yet he left, and in one fine afternoon, A1P7 had class meeting known as Mentor-Mentee . Among three guys, I didn't that my name would be the chosen one . Starting the meeting, I likewise arrived late 5 minutes away . Many eyes watching me with cold, hot, sweet, sour eyes . Hahaha, I'm sorry I'm being late .said to mentor . And she just happily said Ok ! Remarked . Hastily, I grabbed a seat for myself and sat sound and safe . With no interim leader, the mentor of A1P7, forcely had to start the speech . 10 minutes after the speech covered by laughing, sad of one comrade gone to left us for another bright future, Pn Nana, officially mentor A1P7 announced the election of A1P7 new captain of the ship . Yeah, the captain would be one of the trio . And my one of my comrade, tough, Penang-self, seriously face, 165cm I guess, RMC back in time . All girls stood for him, desired to vote for him, outnumbered of me . Actually, the girls don't have many choices to vote, I knew it already . So in the meantime, they wrote the names, each person, not one missed, put the untold names into one box . ......................................................................... . . . . . Pn Nana counted all of it, and the result is draw between me and him . 26 mentees, 13 for me - really, I have fans Ahaha -, 13 for him . One deep confession is I know, I lived and studying in Penang, with Penang students mostly, so I know I will no have the chances for 10 marks co-curriculum . The guy for 13 is Penang . So yeah !! You got it, brother !! Go get 'em . But it's not finshed till that time, only one person did not vote who is Pn Nana . So she decided to give the scroll to me with high of trust, loyalty and tolerancy . The other classmates, claps and congrates me for being a new leader . I'm with no skills at all to attained this much higher task for less than 1 year . I just thanked all the attorneys and I'm a Judge . That guy congrates me too, and I just preciously thanked him too . Last of stand-stood guy is like me too, with master of humour, spontaneously self, love to make people laugh, and guess what I'm  the only KL guy in this class . He's Penang too, even one village with another guy . In my mind, it's banana for me to handle Penang people . But it's not too long, I found they are really friendly, caring and stand for their comrades too .

One day just left me out with happy moments and will be hard times to rock n roll . The next day, all A1 lecture division know me as a new leader in A1P7 ship . They just simply congrate me and I'm simply said, I'm nothing and please teach me how to .All days are being good with new circumstance . In addition, I've been rewarded one glorious, luminous and wealthy pen from my lovely sister . She's congrates me, yet she wanted more than this . She gave me that pen as a gift being new leader and she urges me to live steadily in that position, hold and glittering the sparks out of myself last few years ago . So, I took the challenge with high spirits, and hold this position like she wanted to .

This position, I appreciated to because it's not what people can easily to achieve and not as simple to hold it continuously . Even I cannot to hold that for long-term . Maybe it's common from another view, but in my sight, being a leader is a new way to survive in hard life and it's much precious when we make it platinum and thers will see . All classmates will come around and support me to make them put more trust in me . I know I can and I will do . Most lecturers know me as A1P7 leader than a lame one .

Part One, The End ~

Thank You .

new horizon . new sparks .

welcome for me to new place i've been through since June dis year . Lots people I meet, lots outrageous manner I found . Lots granted mask , those are really one of a kind . Never thought I could decide to change my own self, place and time to a new place, culture and people . It's bout many things to story here . Such good place with good people around me, like in heaven I think . That's Penang !!!

At first, in KL, I lived in best places everywhere to chilling out with friends throughout nights, watching football matches every weekend, chatting, gossipin' , laughing out loud - never cares other people around us - , shout GOALLLL every ball into the nets . Hahaha . - clearly undeniable, it's best -
Besides that, we were RFBZ guys stand for fun things all the time - even tweeter, facebook, whatsapp we are together . Long-term friends are important in my atmosphere . This medium are what I hoped for . Even we're in hard situations, then sit together, story each problem out of truly hearts . Eventually, become laughing and happy moments created .

The goods I bring all along to the new world .
Not to deny, in fact, it's harder to adapt myself in Penang, where the place I'm studying in Penang Matriculation College - PMC . I'm taking account course, TQ for askin' . First out of all I want to touch about this wisdom stage . Since I got texted from government that offering me to study in PMC, I started my steps stalking all bout PMC . Not confident at all to go . But with RFBZ spirits, I went successfully through this . PMC is the best college ever for social-technology-fun-outing-friends category . One of a kind !!
First day I stepped in, it is like in the biggest event in the world . Similar to KL, not even one piece missed . means so many many parents sent their teens, cars, packed like in Sardines can . Hot-climate in Malaysia, but aid from God, His Bless make the day cool . Filled with all-unknown-mates registered whose friendly guys . As I'm used to be, I'm the last person in my room . I didn't know them . Like in aliens come from any planets . Oops, sorry guys . Haha , chill chill . But, with different minds, they are hot guys, but low-minded .It's okay to me .

First in my mind, I explored this new hole to find one person named 'someone who will change the will of my world in future" . haha, please keep this TOP SECRET . Study ?? haa, it's number two in my mind . Wtf i think back in time . First night, with new surrounding, new friends - roommates - we all the nights fought whose place is the bestest . Totally, I stand for KL . Haha, they just don't know what they're living in . K-pop being cursed in all many places . Even in my room, all the roommates are Big Bang . And I was known as T.O.P !!! Remarked . As the seconds flowing fast, minutes gone through, clock ticking, most people who knows me in campus called me this name . Haa, only few didn't know that name called me Q . Haha . That's better .

haa . time is jealous of me right now . To sum up this, I'm totally happy with PMC which will change my future to the bright side . And I know I can survive this . Actually, I have so many titles, to story about .Maybe, it's bout time . Perhaps, so soon, I'll continue with lots interesting titles . Such as Me in never decided position, Hard time to solve, Happy moments and special one, It's Dew !! Till the time, I have to wait .

| This Is Me | - Mr. Q - Respect - my thoughts through sights - End this . Remarked .

Can't Bear This Feelin's

Just Me and One Circle of Her...
turn left, 'her'...
turn right, 'her'...
turn into, 'her'...
turn 360, 'her'...

haa...
can't bear this feelin's...
shocked by sweet moments of little time in fantasy world
demand more of it...
more of it...more of it...
bothered by hard circumstance...

I...
want my life in that fantasy world...

but the question is...

MAY I DESERVE FOR THAT WHAT I REALLY REALLY REALLY DESIRE ?

only my future can answer that...

Feb-ulous 1, 2012

Fabulous February 1, 2012


We're in one cocoon vault sitting together serve seconds of luxury moments...
Eatin' Nasi Bujang ( familiar in Malaysia ), especially for person named 'youngster'
Drinkin' Teh o Ais ( Iced Tea )
Thumbin' I.T gadgets
Playing games 
Whoopin' flavour of Grape Mint ( free for that night )
Staying till late night


hahaha... what a wonderfull limits of time...


cklap ! (-_-)

Rookie For Wipey !

Sh0t Without Mercy 

Pro-Curl

Experienced Boy

Wait For his Turn

Ohh-ho ! Nice Looking

Focus ! You Can Do It More !

Future Bright Talent

Hey ya !
Watch out !
Hahaha !
Those unconscious talent are few of my friends...
They always spend leisure time playing snooker to make up themselves a good player like the others around the world for one day in future !
Of course they have talents like the others, just they shy to make their debut in any competitions...
Hahaha !

Cklap ! (-_-)

Is It Me ?

Place : City of All Dreams

Time : N/A

Date : N/A

Starts with ...

Actually, I'm married person in free marriage...me and the girl, Marie (not real name) had been just through an "you-know-what" situation ourselves at one seducing night...yes, it was...we were just do it out of common sense...and suddenly, we've been shocked by lots of voices that just getting around and become any closer with us...I stunned and can't do any moves just because fear of my own fault at that time...Marie felt the same way though but I took those in heavy matter... On the next day, I've woke up late and when I just out of my room, there, in not much spacious living room full of both whole families, sit in steady mode but sad and regretful expressions on their faces I can see...I've been pulled out by someone I know to sit with them on shameful face...waiting for the right person to judge my bad marry-off day...we were in bad mood, of course my family the only shameful because of their son that's me, involved in "you-know-what" matters... I know they took my burden on their shoulders...I felt regretful at that time see my Marie pulled out her face from me...arrgghhh!!what i've done...!!!few minutes later while i'm still in my regret imagination...the judger arrived and sit right in front of me with hastily finished it...and now I'm a husband to Marie...how could I take these burdened on my shoulder right away !?

Why those huge matter could happened like this in just one night ?? I slowly can't accept those matter in my life... I only think that I should die now... But it can't solve anything of course...Marie's family is well-known of their egoist lifestyle... It is because after I've been announced as husband to their daughter... Her parents hastily stood and condemned me, and I only remember the sentence. "We still can't accept this"... I am the person that very understood because Marie is their only daughter that just 17 years old same with me, schooling in the same institute...For now, only me, Marie and our big web of families know about this... Tomorrow then, we're going to school, pretending like friends, greeting our friends without showing the sign that we're husband and wife... As usual, we study in same classroom but different table and seat... Many of my friends get closer to Marie cause of her cute, pretty and elegant style in herself in every second... Everyday, the same thing happened... I'd just be jealous of her getting closer with my friends... For 1st and 2nd day, absolutely i can hold myself when noticed my wife just being surrounded by them...but now, i can't stand lasts longer...

Suddenly, my body moves on its own that had been control by my red angry emotion to my  wife's seat and...

be continued in 3 days later ...

gtg ...

cklap !! (-_-)

I'm Newbie, Sir !

Place : On the desert

Time : 12.00 p.m

Date : N/A

Starts with...

me, Q ( current ) stand on the ground and accompanied by hot Sun located on my head and suddenly... Sgt. Q ( year of 2040 ), good-looking, tough is enough and taller than me in current year, come and stand in front of me with fierce face... He starts ask me...

Q        : Good Afternoon, Sir ! (salute)

Sgt. Q : Hmmm...

Q        : I'm just newbie here, sir !

Sgt. Q : Your full name !!

Q        : Oo... my name is Raja Ah...mad

Sgt. Q : Loud and Clear !!!

Q        : RAJA AHMAD NAQIUDDIN BIN RAJA ABDUL MALIK, sir !!

Sgt. Q : Your age...

Q        : 18 years old clear, sir !

Sgt. Q : Hmmm !! Why  you desire to join this community ??

Q        : I want to express my idea and feeling through this WALL, sir !! I also want to get     

involved officially in this atmosphere too... !!!

Sgt. Q : Haha !! Only  what you great for ??

Q        : Actually, ...

Sgt. Q : Loud and Clear !!

Q        : I'm good at nothing, sir !! Sorry, sir !! I can't answer your question because i am not make up special ability to myself yet and I think this is the best platform for me to start my adventure world, sir !! For now, ...

Sgt. Q : Silent !! I don't want to hear your single silly word anymore !! It's just nonsense !! Mark this phrase... !!

LESS TALKING, ACTING FIRST !!! if you just talking nonsense, but not taking any moves, you are still in your cocoon, staying in your victim personality life...!!! Got my words ??

Q just shocked right away and my body stunned like a stone, stand in no words...

be continued soon ...

 cklap !! (- _-)

Welcome To The .... in 2.0.1.2

my life had totally change...
kinda wait n see the things that will be going in front of us...
just live n let it be...
all things that happened conclude silver lining for us to achieve...
Introducing, this is a MELODY OF LIFE...